Hey you all, and of course, a late happy new year!
This is my first blog post for this year, and even though it contains random cludder of thoughts, wining and whatnot, it of course has something with the year to do.

Well, about 2022. Personally for those interested, and like you can see in all those posts here, it was a pretty special year, the most eventful one in my life I’d say. A lot of good things happened. I mett new people, trained on english talking and learned norwegian, got contact to people, but I also went through bad emotions, being ignored, unsatusfied with myself, love sickness’s and very unstable times in general. Now, there is 2023.
I’m not sure how this year will be, what will happen, who I’ll still get to know and with who I’ll be more distanced, and how much I’ll go through in this one.

Sadly, I’m also stuck on some months in 2022 still, and I always have been since a while. It happened many things in most of them, and some things at end of year or close to, but connected pain to it makes me not miss that really as much as the month such as march or april. April simply because a lot of things happened, an easter sleepover at chirch, and last but not least, a lot of talks and chat conversations with my friend. Yes, right, the one I feel for. And if I think about it, in this moment I really felled cared for, and I appreciated it. But I notice it more and more the more months pass by. And I keep wondering in general. My behavior in the year, the way I treeded others, but also partly how I have been treeded, and all my choices. Was this even the wright way? Did it have to go like this in the first place, and could it have been better after all?
But sadly time is the most worthy thing in life. you can’t turn it back. You can’t buy it. You can’t just change it. And it’ll never be this way. I sometimes wondered what would be in 50 or 80 years. Even if time machines would be there. It’d maybe be the most amazing simulation we’ve seen. But it doesn’t turn time back. Nothing ever will. And sadly we’ve got to except that. Especially me for my part. Sadly I’m not sure how though. In the end I’m alone more recently, now holidays have been and I start to think differently. But 1 thing I can tell. In the longrun it’s not good for me. In the shortwhile it may be. But no matter how much fun I have with gaming, especially now that mist world’s english version found its presence, it will never be permanent. This is just not real life.

On the other hand, I also think it’s not my fault. I ran after people for so long. I really cared, and tried asking how it goes. I wanted to talk to them. But in the end now I didn’t do it in weeks, the result? You can guess. I can’t name someone of my friends who really wrote back themself. And it’s frustrating to be quite honest. It sucks my energy out, for the longrun as well. Even if I think I am able to handle it by hiding myself away from anyone behind the pc. But surely this is not curing the woonds at all. It just hides the pain that may collect behind the bandage, if that makes sense.
Now I don’t know who gave themself this peace of text junk, but I do appreciate those who did. Thanks, have a good day and take care, for now.
PS:
1. An older let’s play of some bc simply do to the nostalgic times I had with this thing has been recorded a while ago. Possibly it may get uploaded here next week or when I miss content.
2. Who on earth keeps spamming polls for ages? Can I Like, kill you or something?