Hey readers,
This is a little more different this time, and not to much story of my life for now, that’s boring after all!
However, there happened something yesterday which I’d like to share and maybe it can be motivating for ones needing it.
I won’t go into much detail, but before newyear I started a new friendship with a girl at the chirch I go to, maybe was telling in the newyear post about it. Anyway, after friday the 16th we just chatted a lot but couldn’t really meet, holidays were there and other things keeping her busy.
Well, to come to the point, the last weeks of my life until now have been kinda hard for me again in a different way. There was a friendship problem and conflicts with someone, I had a hurting back, now a cold and none of existing situations I had improved anyway. Maybe though that the love sickness I suffer for so long now again is gone. Sure not the feelings, but they’re somewhere they won’t infect my life on a negative, sad way anymore, which is good, 1 problem less for me, one less for everyone else.
It is kinda hard shortening it, but now I’ll try, because if I don’t I’d need to go for very long here again and this is not what I want to go for today, so now let’s finally get into the real thing. O and for those knowing me more, they will probably know more again at some point or may if they ask. But anyway…
Yesterday I’ve spend a lot of time with her, talking about a lot of things, including music. Building up friendships is so great simply because of that, you talk a lot. Anyways, do to studdying and other things she won’t be here for 4 months after summer holidays, along with her boyfriend, being the youth leader at our chirch. When she told me that it kinda shocked me. And this was maybe the cure for my woond of missing old times. Maybe it’s cured finally. Maybe that gave it the healing. Now a phrase which is very important and true here ones again, at the moment the online status of Jonathan and already before the signature of bran:
Learn to appreciate what you have before time makes you appreciate what you had.
And this has such a simple, yet so true point, which every one of you should always, always remember, no matter how hard life is. Something good is there, and that always. And that should always be enjoyed, I talk from experience, so I mean it.
PS: Don’t get confused, I didn’t talk to the her I feel for, no no, to the somewhat newer friend. I actually, in fact, know her since end of march, but never talked so much to her.
Why do I use her, her and her? Somehow I guess it’s a better thing to keep the names out of the way. They’re not relevant for anyone here, and even if there’s a 1% chance they may see it in a trilion years I’m still careful, kinda my nature, so I’ll just try formulating myself as best as I can.
But you’re probably thinking like, wow dude nice and all but what’s that life changer the post is named?
Right, I didn’t forget about it, I’ll write about it now:
Finishing the conversation and when I almost had to go, I stopped her before we went into the hallway with a lot of people. We’ve been somewhere before and it was very quiet and empty there so I used this oppertunity, and probably noone has even been seeing it which is great, maybe you get why soon, I hate misunderstandings.
I risked it and asked for this life changer, but without going halfely into the question, she realised what I really wanted to get. Dude whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat is it! Nothing less then, a hug, which succeeded!
It was surely 2 minutes we stood there, sometimes in the normal hugging position, sometimes our bodys in a really tight one. I really can’t describe to you all what that did to me, considering I didn’t talk to her so many times before, but probably that will change very quickly in the future. It was so much appreciation from my side, the goodness, warmth and energy filling me from her, and suddenly I realised I got all what I ever asked for in the end. In the end, everything I wanted was something like that, and I got it in the moment I expected it the least. Surely we stood there for 2 minutes and luckily noone saw us or I think so, which is great because maybe people could misunderstand things very easily here. But suddenly I noticed something today. I’m actually on a really good way of getting over many things that have been pushing me down so hardly. Distancing from people/things that arn’t good to me, moving on from bad thoughts about myself, and so much more. That doesn’t mean life’s great and omg my life’s the best, but it came to a point where I have to say, a long, long ongoing hurting phase of my life begins to end. And more glorious times have just begun. And this is what I wanted to share with everyone who cares and reads this here. Never. Never give up your hope for something that may work out in the end. Ask people for you’re needs, such as my need of getting a hug every once in a while, especially in those situations. But except a no if they feel uncomfortable. And speak out your problems to someone who you trust on a high level, never keep things to yourself. And don’t come that far to get stuck on things for so long and damaging your self confidence, like me.
Now I’m done here, wishing you a nice rest of the weekend. And remember: There’s always a little bit of hope, no matter when. Always.
With a big hug and wishes for a lot of energy on your way,
Marc