Hi guys,
So I had to do the last one. Maybe each summer 3 night thoughts? Lol, idk. I guess it’s nostalgia.
Well, it’s monday. Nearly tuesday. School is starting on thirsday and even though friday afternoon is weekend again and these 2 days won’t be noticed much, I’m still nervice. Nervice for having to deal with norwegian stuff. Meeting some people I think it was peaceful without. Having life bringing me back into reality. I mean, honestly I know I have a lot of problems right now but this feeling intencifies when I’m away from this pc. When I’m eating lunch with myself, talking to myself, sharing thoughts with myself, being everywhere for myself and just don’t know where I belong.
Speaking of pc, for those interested, check out the english voice forum, so my pc has problems too and I’m just not wanting to do an ughly reinstall but it must probably be the best option. Only problem is this dumm McAffee and installing every little program besides the backups.
Now, especially since I’m more or less alone and @Jonathan here is away, who I had great times with, I keep realising what happened the last month. From drama, both in every stupid comunity and family, losing a never real friend and my pc going on my last nerves to overload of doubt regarding the next time and this frustration of not being able to stop it.
I’m sick of loneliness. But we come to another point, and I feel like this is worcening everywhere. People talk behind others backs, person a has a problem with b and c doesn’t like them both, etc. Without this so many people could have it easier. Thinks could all be discussed if people wouldn’t be stupid, sit down and listen without getting insane. Maybe I see it wrong but what’s going on here recently is just not fun. And funnily enough, wait no it wasn’t fun. Woopsy. But anyway, it’s again not just the english comunity. And maybe not even just online anymore. I feel like a lot of people idk where and how change up in a lot of ways and idk if it’s good. And surely I’m among them, but I’ve got no idea if this is any good or not. It’s not like I care about what some blindies who I don’t know think and judge about me. But it’s the fact that I’ll surely always just continue running after people to have a nice time. Continue getting soft and falling for excuses. And catching myself in a loop.
I don’t know what more to say. And sorry for my post being like this once again. And surely not the best way written either. But what does it matter. At least on this blog I truely have freedom of speech, of sharing my mind and who doesn’t like it is kindly asked to not read it then.
TC, bye and maybe until another one soon. Thanks for reading and sticking around.
One response to “Some thoughts at night part 6: School and things going downhill”
Honestly from what I can tell you need to…
1: Find A healthy way to relieve stress. There’s a lot of good ways. I know you’re a religious person; I am as well. Just try some things. Praying, for an example.
2: Get away from the computer. It’s difficult but you need to make some friends irl or chances are good that you will suffer through school.
3: Realize that you aren’t forced to hang out with people you don’t like and/or have issues with. If you find yourself in a sort of loop, evaluate where you are as a person and kinda think about why it’s happening. Is it a decision you’re making, or is it the people around you. If it’s not you, there’s nothing wrong with choosing your own friends. A problem I had for the longest time, and still somewhat have as far as in person friendships go, is that I always let my friends choose me. I’d go with whoever wanted to talk to me because outside of a few people I had no one. It’s fine to talk to people, I’m not saying you should avoid people or anything like that. I’m just saying don’t feel like you don’t have the right to choose who you spend your time with.