Welcome and indeed, you heard it right.
Many things have changed, I didn’t really have something proper to post for a half year, and now I felled like looking back, or just writing something. It’s crazy how time runs at this point. So many decisions I have taken, which I’m not proud of, some that I don’t know if they were ever the right thing since they still impact me today, and then obviously, heaven games. In a way a meaningful little thing, but on the other hand I’m very open about this and I’ll state here that honestly I don’t know how people develop audio games. Rather, in which position are they. Bored? Emotionally really well? Or, an nostalgic overthinker, trying to do something else with his time just in order to shuv problems, or any other more important things away.
Then there is finally my turn to exit 10th grade and switch school in a half year, and while this I’ll need to pull myself together, and push through. But I wonder if I’d ever miss it. How taunting all this norwegian shit will be and, how I will feel about all this later.
Honestly I tell you as it is. My life, right now, consists of doing things I’m not sure if they’re actually good for me, nostalgia, struggles in my current real life, friendships that only last over small phases and which I would else need to run after, but which I very much got sick of, and the rest, nothing. It’s demotivating when you know you have this huge thing called day in front of you. Each morning when you rise up you have a chance to make something out of it, and then you won’t. That feeling has bothered me for a longer time now. I sit here, vent about nonsense and talk crap, but what do I do about it. But then again, what is there even to do. Sometimes trying things worsins things and I did experience that a lot. But the worst thing out of all is when you get ignored, O o it’s normal, and others struggle like you too. Is that all what people have to say, and is this true at all???
Obviously I could go deeper, but since I didn’t post on this blog for a long time I may consider building this up and talk more about me post by post for people actually interested.
What else to say. Check my visiting card, comment somewhere if you’ve feedback, questions, whatever, idk.
Bye and until later, at this point